Friday, June 30, 2006

Hiatus.....

Well i'll be off for a month .....for a holiday........

I'm looking forward to it...maybe i'll upload some photographs while hoildaying....till then...

Do take care..
Love...

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Loreto Convent, Shillong, Class 1, 1987



With Mrs. D'Costa and Sr. Monica, class 1, 1987 Loreto Convent, Shillong..

Did we ever think how time would fly so soon...??? Here i am...almost twenty years hence...

Monday, June 26, 2006

If Men Could Menstruate......

Yeah...if only they would :(...

Anyways, check out the link below....its tongue in cheek and really funny!!! And i'm sure the men are going to agree with it....

http://www.mum.org/ifmencou.htm

Friday, June 23, 2006

Being Schizoid....

I am quite Paranoid. Like the other day i was telling someone....i'm really scared to part with my personal details on the internet...what if...there are 'dangerous' people lurking around. Not that they would be on a prowl to hunt me down...but who knows rt? Anyway, been thinking about it lately...perhaps i'll upload my picture on the blog one day or reveal my name ...

I think i've become very comfortable in this sense of security....to be known as just schizoid to my unknown audience. In reality Schizoid is not just any term that i have taken a fancy to ....i think the term reflects a part of who i am ...i am a bundle of contradictions... i'm sure most people are...but i'm a people's person on one hand but i'm quite a loner....most of the time...


to be continued...

I love my space...i'm quite guarded about "my space".I think....perhaps i overdo it at times....just think and think about life and career, relationships ....or the lack of it :( .....I dunno therez always something thats weighing on my mind. At present its the project report to be submitted....its just that and nothing more. I sometimes wish i didn't have to think that much...what kind a life would that be...i can hear a voice in my head saying "relaxed"....i'm sure thats true...but that would require some time...to be cool and laid back and "relaxed"...... hmmm ...

I also tend to go over details of some past events over and over again...so much so that it gets magnified....the "repetition trauma" the psychodynamic theorists would eagerly point out. But you know its not always bad....when i spend a lot of time thinking about some issue and analyze it from several angles (as in try to see my stand and the other's) ....over time...it ceases to hold that great a significance. I feel that perhaps my mind becomes weary and stops reacting to it...and the issue then becomes like those countless other issues that are just mundane without much substance....

Anyways, i dunno if i make much sense...but this is how my mind works time and again...

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Music that i'm listen to these days:

* The Vienna Choir Boys ( and especially their rendition of 'Amazing Grace'......its brilliant and very soothing!!!)
*Green Day (When I Come Around, Time of Your Life - Really like this one specially!)
*Melodies of Tibet ( a rather different collection of music from the Land of the Buddha.....its good!)

Quite an eclectic collection....but thats what keeps me going....Music is all about moods...and like my temperament, what i listen to also changes from time to time....

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

"IRIS"


"IRIS" by Goo Goo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


Monday, June 05, 2006

The Price one has to pay.....

The past few days have been very depressing....a lot of things have been cumulatively added on to an overwhelming feeling of anxiety, apprehension and depression. I got to know of the death of a young , outspoken scholar .....he used to write extensively and was a regular contributor to the several web portals like zoram.net , e-pao.net. He was Issac L Hmar. I didn't know him personally....i was made aware of him through a close friend. ...a few days ago....long after he was gone forever....

I was stunned when i got the news....man...he was young...just 25 years old!!! He was allegedly killed by insurgents in Aizawl. Is this the cost one has to pay for living in a conflict ridden area? Its sooo disheartening. What does the future hold for us? I don't know and i have no answers to that....